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A music streaming site I've been listening to on shuffle for 70s singers started playing Melissa Manchester's "Don't Cry Out Loud" and I got a little bit giddy.

I've always loved Manchester's voice and the lyrics to the song:


Baby cried the day the circus came to town
'cause she didn't want parades just passin' by her
So she painted on a smile and took up with some clown
While she danced without a net upon the wire
I know a lot about 'er 'cause, you see
Baby is an awful lot like me
Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside, learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all
Baby saw that when they pulled that big top down
They left behind her dreams among the litter
The different kind of love she thought she'd found
There was nothin' left but sawdust and some glitter
But baby can't be broken 'cause you see
She had the finest teacher-that was me-I told 'er
Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all
Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost made it
Don't cry out loud
Just keep it inside and learn how to hide your feelings
Fly high and proud
And if you should fall, remember you almost had it all


I've always been more emotional than I'd like to be, even in public. I would love to have what one  of my friends said is commonly called a "brf" (bitchy resting face.)

I'm not a big fan of the "b" word. I don't like curse words unless I'm by myself and even then only if I'm angry, but I especially don't like "*itch" because it's so often used to put women down.

This time, though, I'd like to own the word because whenever I think of women I admire there are the ones that manage to keep their lives together no matter what may be going on privately. And I've gotten to the point where I'd rather risk being seen as aloof and unapproachable than someone who can't even make it through the day without losing her @#$%...well you probably know word I mean.