"I wish." Two of the most useless words in the universe. I wish...I wish I had had a better grasp on my emotions and hadn't spent so much time acting like a cartoon character around someone I like so much. I wish my silliness and inability to form complete sentences didn't give me away and that whenever I sense she knows I didn't have the urge to say, "Believe it or not, this is me trying my very hardest not to be such an idiot around you."
The only thing that has pulled me out of it lately has been that family things have been pretty intense and my niece has been staying with me. I think it's better and much nicer to have another person to look out for, care for, to get your mind out of yourself.
The only thing that has pulled me out of it lately has been that family things have been pretty intense and my niece has been staying with me. I think it's better and much nicer to have another person to look out for, care for, to get your mind out of yourself.
Some people thrive in their singlehood (something I used to do until I hit my 40s) and others sink back into it like a bean bag chair they can't get out of, struggling to find that missing part of themselves.
My life plan has derailed so badly I doubt it will ever get back on track, but the one thing I hope it's not too late for is to truly conquer my emotions and not react so obviously (and sometimes so badly) to things and people.
My life plan has derailed so badly I doubt it will ever get back on track, but the one thing I hope it's not too late for is to truly conquer my emotions and not react so obviously (and sometimes so badly) to things and people.
2 comments:
Sometimes things don't always appear as we think they do. Maybe it's not as bad as you think, and you aren't really perceived as being silly as you might think.
I'm glad you've got something to take your mind off it, though. It's funny how something that can usually be trying is actually a blessing in this case.
And you're in the U.S. right? Happy 4th of July :)
Thank you for the comforting words; I sure hope so! I think guilt and worry can build things up in our mind and, like you say, things aren't always as they appear.
My niece and I had a great week and I'm always sorry when she has to go, but am grateful for the time we have together. :)
I do live in the U.S. My 4th was quiet, but relaxing.
Have a great weekend and thanks again!
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