Other times, though, I realize that because I'm posting anonymously I can be completely honest, something I don't always have a chance to do in real life , were being completely uninhibited is not always an option. I can't apologize for something I feel, though I never want to be mean or out of line on purpose. I've spent so many years wanting to be normal, trying to be normal (and failing), that now a small part of me almost wants to rebel.
Like today, it took all my self-control not to tell the person I like just how much she means to me. Only two things helped: that I would never want her to be uncomfortable and I'm finally starting to relax more around her and not feel sad.
If you've tried, really tried, to stop liking someone and you can't...well, then maybe the only thing you can do about it all is just be more mature and move on from a place of crushing to a place of admiring...as in having a good role model admiring...because, truly, this person is one of the most composed, unique, caring and sound women to be around.
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