I can't say enough good things about Grant Ginder's So Old, So Young, but I will try next time I post...

She began to think about her own life, about how little she had seen or accomplished, and suddenly felt incredibly young, like she had been thrust into something without being properly prepared for it, even though she had ostensibly received the same preparations as everyone else. She felt as though when she looked around her everyone else’s life was starting up, while she was sitting at her desk, writing about men’s colognes, waiting for something to happen.

Maybe, sometimes, you think you are over a thing or a person or an event and then you realize that it's possible that it's more like whatever or whoever was bothering you didn't go away, but, instead, is lying dormant within you.

This occurred to me the other day when a friend told me that someone we both know, but haven't seen in a while, invited a bunch of common acquaintances to an event she is performing at in a few weeks. My friend knows how I used to feel about this person, but perhaps she forgot or just didn't think or figured I'm over her, when she informed me that all of them are going. 

The sting of tears and the hurt I felt at not being included shocked me, even though it's for the best I don't go anyway. Truly, I thought I had put all of my ridiculous, over-the-top feelings behind me. I still think I have. But I can't deny that I also have become very good at pushing emotions down, like so far down they appear and feel non-existent.