I was excited to hear Amazon Prime is adding streaming music and playlists to its $99 package, but then I read this and wondered if it's really worth it: First Look Amazon Prime Music

On the mornings I know I'm going to see X, I steel myself ahead of time. "I can do this," I think. "It's easy. You just look at her and smile. Be normal. Be nice." 

I also give myself a mental litmus test. If I feel a little less blue every time I see her, then the feelings are going away more and more. It'll be okay and I won't unintentionally try her nerves so much.

But each time the feelings are still there and each time I can barely say "hi," yet alone act normal. I act differently around her even though I don't want to. I want to be able to be friendly, if not friends. I want to feel around her the way I do everyone else.

And yet I'm still a babbling idiot or quietly rude. I haven't felt like this since high school and it strikes me as so ridiculous I'm full of shame. Who feels this way around someone else at this age? :(

Staying committed to a tight budget, having a bad cold, being in love or feeling extreme guilt all can keep your appetite from attacking you.  Determined to not give in to hunger or just totally having lost interest in food, you find eating less can almost be good, empowering. As Mr. Money Mustache writes:

...it's an unusual feeling for a rich-world person, but once you get used to it, having a slight craving in your tummy can make you feel invigorated and warriorlike. When you are really hungry, eat a good meal. But if you're just slightly hungry, imagine that your body has moved its suction tube from the usual "stomach" setting, over to "stored fat reserves". It is now a positive challenge to maintain this mild hunger as long as possible, because you want to keep that suction going for many hours each day.

On a similar note, as I get older and find it's not so much about losing weight as it is about not gaining any more I find this article from New York fascinating. I'm not sure I'd recommend it for everyone (certainly not for anyone with food issues or an eating disorder):

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One good thing about insomnia (if you had to find one)? The ability to read when you might not otherwise have the time. So far I am finding this compact read (it's only 163 pages) absolutely mesmerizing and completely in keeping with its title...more later:)