An absolutely lovely short story in this issue hit my heart hard...you can find it here:

https://archive.org/details/Fantasy_Science_Fiction_v003n03_1952-06/page/n3/mode/2up

The Internet Archive is a treasure trove for anyone who loves vintage science fiction. You can find more Fantasy and Science Fiction issues here:

https://archive.org/details/fantasyandsciencefiction

I cannot begin to describe how Sloane Britain's books have affected me, especially _These Curious Pleasures_ and _1st Person 3rd Sex_. I wish she had lived longer. I wish I could actually talk to her. 

Not that she'd need to hear praise from me, but it's just her books speak to me in a way no other books ever have.

There are so many lines in 1st Person that make me either cry or feel less lonely. I don't have many people to talk about "my issues" with...so books are what I rely on.

I wish there were a way to find out more about Sloane Britain, an amazingly talented pulp fiction writer who died way too young and under way too sad circumstances (she killed herself when her family could not deal with her being gay, according to one source, though another states she died in a car accident.) 

While some of what she wrote ended in unhappiness typical of lesbian fiction at the time, books like _These Curious Pleasures_ and _First Person 3rd Sex_ had something more upbeat to offer, either with actual happily ever afters or at least hints of something better to come.

There is so much to like about this book except maybe the title which doesn't exactly roll of the mouth easily. I found myself enjoying several of the passages...ones such as this:

"I felt like laughing because, well, let's admit it, if you're not feeling anything there is something absurd about normally self-controlled dignified human beings grunting and panting with that expression of complete absorption on their faces." Paula (our main character whose heart is bigger than her head and far less practical when it comes to her roommate Janet) contemplates how silly physical love can be without emotional ties.

There's another great line about the main character's history with crushes and, later, she wrestles with how hard it is to meet someone she could actually share a life with forever (something a lot of people search for whether they are gay or straight).

"All I was sure of," Paula thinks to herself, "was that someday, somewhere, I would find that woman who would love me as I loved her. I don't know her name or what she looks like or anything about her, only that as I write this she, too, is waiting."

(I wonder if this is how Sloane Brittain herself felt…)

To contemplate that this was written six decades ago, when most pulp fiction featuring gay women had them "changing their minds," killing themselves, or being committed to institutions...well, that just makes this impressionable book even more overwhelming.

Katherine V. Forrest, a somewhat more modern pioneer in lesbian fiction, once wrote about women like Sloane Britain: "The courage of the authors of these books also cannot be overstated, pseudonyms be damned. The writers of these books laid bare an intimate, hidden part of themselves and they did it under siege, in the dark depths of a more than metaphorical wartime, because there was desperate urgency inside them to reach out, to put words on the page for women like themselves to read. Their words reached us, they touched us in different and deeply personal ways, and they helped us all....In my case, they saved my life."

These words strike hard with the truth, especially for anyone who has ever suffered in silence for fear speaking out would cost them their family or worse.

"Especially Heinous: 272 Views of Law & Order SVU" is a novella written by Carmen Maria Machado in 2013. This weird tale unfolds through 272 capsule synopses, each encapsulating a distinct perspective from the initial 12 seasons of the police procedural series, Law & Order: Special Victims Unit. Originally featured in The American Reader in May 2013, the novella is also included in Machado's 2017 short story compilation, Her Body and Other Parties.

"Law and Order: SVU" is renowned for its unflinching portrayal of heinous crimes, particularly those of a sexual nature. The series focuses on the Special Victims Unit, a team of dedicated detectives who navigate the intricacies of sexual assault and abuse cases. The exploration of power dynamics and the abuse of authority is a central theme that echoes throughout the series.

Similarly, Carmen Maria Machado's Her Body and Other Parties dissects power imbalances in various forms. Through a series of surreal and haunting tales, Machado explores the ways in which power is wielded, misused, and resisted, often using the female body as a focal point for her narratives. 

The stories challenge societal norms, inviting readers to reconsider their understanding of power and its implications. Despite the bizarre nature of "Especially Heinous" and how it deviates somewhat from the actual SVU, the story fits perfectly with the other stories.

In both the TV series and the short story collection, vulnerability takes center stage. "Law and Order: SVU" portrays the raw and often harrowing experiences of victims as they navigate the criminal justice system. The show humanizes survivors and highlights the strength required to overcome trauma.

Machado's Her Body and Other Parties similarly places vulnerability at its core. Her narratives delve into the emotional and physical vulnerabilities of characters, challenging traditional notions of strength and weakness. Machado's stories often blur the lines between reality and fantasy, creating a space where vulnerability is not a flaw but a powerful force in its own right.

While "Law and Order: SVU" primarily follows law enforcement officials in their pursuit of justice, Machado's stories offer a more nuanced exploration of the concept. Justice, in "Her Body and Other Stories," is not always served through traditional means. Machado prompts readers to question societal norms and consider alternative forms of justice that may involve personal growth, self-acceptance, and the reclamation of one's agency.

"Law and Order: SVU" and Her Body and Other Parties may exist in different realms of storytelling, but their thematic resonance is undeniable. 

Both works challenge audiences to confront uncomfortable truths about power, vulnerability, and justice. Whether through the screen or the written word, these narratives serve as poignant reminders of the importance of empathy, understanding, and the ongoing pursuit of a more just and equitable society.

You can read the story here:

https://theamericanreader.com/especially-heinous-272-views-of-law-order-svu/

When Women Were Dragons is so very good!!!

 

I have so much to say about it, but need to wait until I get my thoughts in order and will be returning to this post soon.

And, also, about this:

Seeing Barry Gibb on the Kennedy Center Honors tonight reminded me of how much the Bee Gees have meant to me for the last 45 plus years.

I still listen to all their albums (ESP is my absolute favorite!) and have such fond memories of their music and my mom loves the Bee Gees as well and did when I was a kid so that means a lot to me even now.

We compared notes after watching it tonight and I thought: I miss how it was between us when I was younger. 

My parents are different now then when I was a kid and their being huge Trump supporters and anti-gay drives a huge wedge between us, even with the silence I so carefully keep with both topics.

I grasp for any thing we have in common.

They were and are good parents and I just always have to remember that.