I'm not Buddhist, but I do enjoy reading Tricycle magazine from time to time. The Fall 2014 issue has some articles on managing anger and (yeah, a real cliché, I suppose, but a helpful one) on finding your true self. I find the latter most interesting because so many times we are trapped by our own notions (just as much as by society's) of who we are supposed to be.
My emotions, more than any other part of me, are what cause me to not behave the way I want to behave. I want to master them, almost to the point that I could be like Spock. It feels so incredibly weird that you can be emotionally sensitive and still not know how to be as a good person. And it is so hard to find balance, not just within yourself but in how you deal with conflict outside yourself.
Yesterday was hard because one person I'm friends (and known for years) wasn't being particularly nice to someone I like a lot. I'm pretty bad with conflict and absolutely horrible with hiding my reactions. Sometimes, in wanting things to be peaceful, or not to give away how I really feel, I think I turn into a coward or, worse, a lunatic.
The following are a few things I'm hoping will help with emotions:
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