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I just don't understand how we are where we are, right now, in our country. How did someone like Trump get here, not once, twice, but three times? A candidate for presidency, yet again.

I fear, to a nauseating level, that he is going to win. I am almost positive he will. And with that win comes Vance (even worse than Trump, if possible) and Project 2025.

What will happen to so many of my friends and me, so many other people all across the country, who are "The Other," who don't support Trump and are parts of marginalized communities? 

I also fear for the field I work in: libraries.

I fear for nurses and doctors and any one else in the medical profession who 100 percent support women in all areas of their health.

My mental list of fears has grown so strong in the past few months that I am never relaxed (and I pretty much came out of the womb a very un-relaxed being.)

I find myself wondering what the parameters will be to quality as a "enemy from within." Will the military be used to oppose anyone who dares to object to what could possibly become a dictatorship?

When I get like this, I lose all sense of how to write down my thoughts and feelings. On paper and even more in my own mind, I sound almost unhinged. And that scares me too.