Sunday, September 14, 2025

I had a dream last night and in the dream I saw someone and interacted with someone I haven’t been friends with or seen since 1998. The dream felt so real that I felt like I had time traveled, and I woke up with the saddest feelings. 

This was someone I really really liked at the time and was lucky enough to be friends with as well. The times I have had crushes on people, they not only haven’t felt the same, we weren’t friends. I never ever tell people I like them 'that way' and as far as I know none of the people I've liked have ever known.

I felt blown away by the strength of the dream. I haven’t really thought about this person in a long time but I went to open my desk drawers where I keep my old diaries, thinking to try one more time to find the journal from the missing year (that is set in my dream). 

I shoved my hands way back behind the crevices of the drawer and found it and could not believe it and having just read some of it right now I feel mentally and emotionally drained. It is just so weird how powerful mental time travel and dreams can be. It feels as if I just saw this person last night instead of almost thirty years ago.

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