Friday odds and ends...

I actually slept last night and had this amazing dream that I was in San Francisco, somewhere I've never been before. At some point in the dream I realized I was dreaming and "woke up" in the dream like you can when you're lucid dreaming. I was underneath the Golden Gate Bridge looking up and it was so incredibly detailed I was blown away.

I've only lucid dreamed (dreamt?) a few times in my life, one of which I loved because I got to have a really neat talk with my long-departed and beloved grandmother. Lucid dreaming (for me) is incredibly hard, but when it does happen it's like no other rush I know...except for musically-inspired ones.

This article examines the power and benefits of lucid dreaming:

http://www.fastcompany.com/3042659/how-lucid-dreaming-can-improve-your-waking-life


Also kind of related, this article on being a morning person versus a night owl...from a recent New Yorker:
http://www.newyorker.com/science/maria-konnikova/moral-mornings?mbid=social_facebook


Other things today:

Below is a great tribute for Leonard Nimoy from the Verge website. I loved In Search Of as a child. For me it was always about that voice of his, whether he was narrating something or appearing on Fringe:

Nimoy was there too, when I sat down cross-legged on our living room carpet to watch episodes of In Search Of. The show was a kind of Cosmos for crazy murders and conspiracy theories, and with Nimoy narrating, I loved it. It was his voice: Calm. Commanding. Instant gravitas, but never off-putting. It was the kind of warm, almost paternal presence that invited you into a story, telling you This is important, and you will want to see what happens.

You can read more here:

 http://www.theverge.com/2015/2/27/8121021/leonard-nimoy-spock-live-long-and-prosper

Between not sleeping last night and being worried about a few different things, my nerves are shot. It doesn't help that I drank lots of coffee to stay awake for today, nor that I am trying to keep my game face intact. That last is the hardest because it's very trying to keep your mask on when even your face feels like it's shaking.

The following are just some ideas for keeping as calm as possible. Chamomile and ginger often help me a lot as does writing my worries down.

• Don’t be frustrated or angry at yourself for being nervous. It’s a very normal fear reaction and focusing on its negative effects will make them seem larger than life.>>>>http://www.nativeremedies.com/ailment/signs-of-nervousness-info.html

 http://www.wikihow.com/Calm-Down

 http://www.everydayhealth.com/pain-management/natural-pain-remedies.aspx

from Pinterest

This is what it's like to be around someone you really like, but know you shouldn't, and have to be around anyway: you can't talk to them. You physically can't, even if you want to, like a normal person would.

You get tongue-tied, not because you've time traveled back to high school all of a sudden or even because you're at heart a shy person. You are terrified of what you might say if you open your mouth (possibly declare your feelings or jibber jab like a cartoon character.)

And, odder yet somehow not, you're terrified no matter what you do say, no matter how generic or innocent, it will give away clues. And you most certainly do not want that person to ever know, ever. So, instead of being like you would with anyone else in your life, casual if not normal, you're always worried and going out of your way to be careful is actually your downfall. 

There are rare days when you can actually talk, even laugh or enjoy that person's company completely relaxed. But you just get these vibes, no matter how nice and genuine the person is, that they would rather you leave them alone. And that only adds to the confusion.


So then you decide, maybe, some things are best left alone and you care about the person, would want to have a friendship if you could, but ultimately decide some things are best left alone. Because, even if you didn't get those icy vibes (which, honestly, the person can't help but give off, you just know somehow) your gut instinct would guide you...and because even if you didn't have that gut instinct, you would still feel sad and useless in this situation because you just don’t know how to be the person she could actually like.




 “Trust instinct to the end, even though you can give no reason.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson

I saw this online and wanted to share it in case you need to see it too...and by "you," I mean anyone who might be reading this and actual people I'm thinking of if they could see it. May you have a wonderful Wednesday and if you're not having a good day, may it get much better! :)

Tuesday odds and ends...

Selective sound syndrome and misophonia both came up when I typed in a search about certain voices or sounds truly annoying you.

I wouldn't say I experience the rage that is often a symptom, and I don't think I actually have the condition, but I definitely cringe when I hear certain pitches and, definitely, certain songs.

The opposite, almost extreme euphoria, when you hear someone's voice or a song you love so much, is pure joy. 

I love this quote below...when you realize, and truly accept, that someone doesn't love you (or even want your love) there is power in getting over that...once that getting over it actually takes place, of course. I'm not talking about romantic love being returned, that is a given from the start, but even a far more casual love...when even that's not there. Acceptance is key to inner peace and happiness.