Sure, I've gotten over my disappointment that "Terminator: The Sarah Connor Chronicles" was canceled. It WAS a great sci-fi show, with lots of emotional complexities buried under a seemingly reserved family dynamic, but mourning a program's loss needs to be quick and swift because it's never coming back.

Still that doesn't mean I can't listen to Bear McCreary's lovely score!:)

The music is more low key and chill than anything that ever came from the movie's soundtrack...it's just wonderful to listen to when you want something without words and are in a contemplative mood.

Another tv soundtrack that's amazing (and in this case, FAR better than the show) is:



It's everything I had hoped the show would be: smart, pretty, loving, spiritual, complex, sincere...needless to say (if you've seen even one episode!) the show was none of these...

On last night's "24" Agent Walker (played by superb actress Annie Wersching)  continued her very interesting and intense descent from a previously level-headed and reserved by-the-book FBI agent to a self-destructive break-the-rules-with-a-vengeance woman who (we now learn) may or may not have been sexually abused the first time she went undercover with the Russian mob.

While it's true that a LOT of off-screen things happened to Agent Walker between season 7 and 8 (the one currently airing on Fox Monday nights) it's still hard swallow such a swift change in character; with a less talented actress, it would be near impossible...in last night's episode we learned much more about why Walker had the nervous breakdown that was mentioned in the January 19th episode...and I still have a hard time believing that it's supposed to be connected solely to her interrogating a witness and not more related to the horrible things she experienced while undercover and probably will again now that's she been reassigned (unofficially) to infiltrate the mob.

I know it's just a tv show and Wersching (who I might have already mentioned is doing a superb job!) is just playing a fictional character. Still...it saddens and even unnerves me to see the difference between what the cost of recklessness is to a woman who is basically doing the same things (minus last week's saw incident) Jack is and paying a much higher price...that is if we're talking about all of this unwinding being a direct result of Walker's harshly interrogating her witness...I'm still not sure that's what this is all about...

Next week's preview looks even more disturbing as in it we see Wersching's character in a towel  and fresh out of the shower being summoned by Vladimir, the man who physically abused her the first time she went undercover. Even in a brief glimpse of her face it's easy to tell that she does not want to respond. The whole situation (being undercover and having to put up with physical, and possibly sexual, assault or risk breaking her cover) is a very uneasy one and (if handled right) has the potential to pose one of the most thought-provoking questions "24" has ever raised...what exactly is a person capable of going through when committed to a job that involves national security but puts her in serious jeopardy, in both bodily and emotional harm.

Jack's drug addiction horrors (as a result of his undercover work during the third season) sort of pale next to this.

I'm up late because I've been having nightmares lately and would rather not have another tonight...

very scary dream early this morning...scary because while the content was scary i didn't flinch at all and what does that say about me? in the dream I was in a room with two metal boxes of organs (all the organs and innards of the human body) that were probably from two different humans and I was supposed to shift through everything...it was extremely slimy and there was someone to the right of me (I don't know who) when all of the sudden a newspaper article (which I couldn't read) and a cat appeared next to me (the cat was my childhood cat Boots, I think)...the cat started purring and said, "See what happens when you fall in love with humans." or maybe it was: "see what happens when humans fall in love."

awfullll except that the cat wanted me to pick him up and hug him, which I did...there were other dreams before that, but I don't remember them...

I think I had the dream because I'd seen a Francis Bacon painting the night before and his stuff always creeps me out:

(be warned: this link will show you one of the creepiest pictures ever!!)

http://www.sai.msu.su/wm/paint/auth/bacon/painting.jpg

In the Air (88 Remix)In the Air (88 Remix)

I've been looking for the infamous (or maybe not so infamous since how infamous can Phil Collins music really be?!!) 1988 remix of "In the Air Tonight" and just now I see this online (see above link) $52.90??...is this the only way to get it? I've been looking for a while now 'cause I used to love the remix (and the amazing piano intro), but, man, 52 bucks??? Really?? And that's the USED price...to buy it new is over 200 bucks...wow!!

Anyone know of a cheaper (still legal!) way to find the MP3?

It looks like the most recent review on Amazon (April 3rd of last year) shows this CD is the only way to locate it right now...darn!

I guess for now, at least, I'll just continue to listen to it through grooveshark:

http://listen.grooveshark.com/#/playlist/Favoriteforgottensongs/572698

...cool website that lead to a cool package in the mail!...

Maybe it's the digital age or just that I bypass the mail room on my way into my apartment...for some reason I wait for days to check my mail. Tonight I went downstairs to get the mail and I had a 'surprise' package from this company I'd completely forgotten I'd contacted.

The site (fakechapter.com or musicisfake.com) will send you (FREE!) brand new cds of quirky music groups and singers you probably have never have heard of but who have a lot to offer. The site doesn't even charge you for postage...so neat!!

Tomorrow I'll be back to write about Green To Think's "Liar Like Me." Sleep well!:)

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Green to Think is okay and certainly mellow enough for the kind of music I like late at night, but I think maybe they're TOO mellow...hmmm.