Between not sleeping last night and being worried about a few different things, my nerves are shot. It doesn't help that I drank lots of coffee to stay awake for today, nor that I am trying to keep my game face intact. That last is the hardest because it's very trying to keep your mask on when even your face feels like it's shaking.

The following are just some ideas for keeping as calm as possible. Chamomile and ginger often help me a lot as does writing my worries down.

• Don’t be frustrated or angry at yourself for being nervous. It’s a very normal fear reaction and focusing on its negative effects will make them seem larger than life.>>>>http://www.nativeremedies.com/ailment/signs-of-nervousness-info.html

 http://www.wikihow.com/Calm-Down

 http://www.everydayhealth.com/pain-management/natural-pain-remedies.aspx

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This is what it's like to be around someone you really like, but know you shouldn't, and have to be around anyway: you can't talk to them. You physically can't, even if you want to, like a normal person would.

You get tongue-tied, not because you've time traveled back to high school all of a sudden or even because you're at heart a shy person. You are terrified of what you might say if you open your mouth (possibly declare your feelings or jibber jab like a cartoon character.)

And, odder yet somehow not, you're terrified no matter what you do say, no matter how generic or innocent, it will give away clues. And you most certainly do not want that person to ever know, ever. So, instead of being like you would with anyone else in your life, casual if not normal, you're always worried and going out of your way to be careful is actually your downfall. 

There are rare days when you can actually talk, even laugh or enjoy that person's company completely relaxed. But you just get these vibes, no matter how nice and genuine the person is, that they would rather you leave them alone. And that only adds to the confusion.


So then you decide, maybe, some things are best left alone and you care about the person, would want to have a friendship if you could, but ultimately decide some things are best left alone. Because, even if you didn't get those icy vibes (which, honestly, the person can't help but give off, you just know somehow) your gut instinct would guide you...and because even if you didn't have that gut instinct, you would still feel sad and useless in this situation because you just don’t know how to be the person she could actually like.




 “Trust instinct to the end, even though you can give no reason.”
― Ralph Waldo Emerson

I saw this online and wanted to share it in case you need to see it too...and by "you," I mean anyone who might be reading this and actual people I'm thinking of if they could see it. May you have a wonderful Wednesday and if you're not having a good day, may it get much better! :)

Tuesday odds and ends...

Selective sound syndrome and misophonia both came up when I typed in a search about certain voices or sounds truly annoying you.

I wouldn't say I experience the rage that is often a symptom, and I don't think I actually have the condition, but I definitely cringe when I hear certain pitches and, definitely, certain songs.

The opposite, almost extreme euphoria, when you hear someone's voice or a song you love so much, is pure joy. 

I love this quote below...when you realize, and truly accept, that someone doesn't love you (or even want your love) there is power in getting over that...once that getting over it actually takes place, of course. I'm not talking about romantic love being returned, that is a given from the start, but even a far more casual love...when even that's not there. Acceptance is key to inner peace and happiness.

They say you always regret the things you didn't do. I'm not really sure who "they" are...I've heard this said too many times to quote one source. The thing is, though, I don't regret the things I didn't do, but some of the things I did do.

In romantic comedies and sitcoms, people always encourage person A (in love and unsure of reciprocation) to go forth and tell person B. And it almost always turns out that B has always felt the same and there is usually a beautifully touching, sometimes awkward, but always ending well, scene. This, however, is terrible (terrible!) advice in real life.

When I was younger I did this and the results went beyond embarrassing. The person I told never talked to me again. I vowed then and there I would never tell someone I liked her again, certainly not someone outside of close friendship or family and most definitely not someone I romantically liked. It was horribly uncomfortable for the person I told and I hated (absolutely hated) that I hadn't gone with my gut instinct which was to keep quiet and sit on it.

Intuition is amazing, I think, and it has almost never failed me, though I have failed it when I've pushed on despite my first instinct not to. Regretting what you did do (in my opinion) hurts just as much, if not more, than regretting what you didn't do.

There's a much re-pinned post on Pinterest I saw recently that goes "Silence can never be misquoted." That's my new mantra whenever possible and my intuition (something that kept me from doing something totally embarrassing and even life-changing a few weeks ago) I hope to never disregard again. It's far more rational than the heart.


An interesting article on intuition:

http://www.learning-mind.com/the-truth-and-science-behind-the-amazing-intuition-of-humans/