Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Fidgety at 3 a.m. with that weird "I have a million books all around me, but I don't know what to read next," I remembered an article I had read about underrated (and sometimes easily dismissed) authors of the 50s and 60s so I downloaded a book by one of those mentioned: Theodora Keogh.

The granddaughter of Theodore Roosevelt, she focused on rather unconventional and provocative (to the say the least) topics for her era and was sometimes even thrown in with the "ilk" of pulp fiction writers. Even so, I'm finding The Mistress to be far less sensationalistic and much more in tune with human emotions, even if they are sometimes detached ones.

The writing is sincere and surprisingly fresh even if somehow at the same time a sign of its times. Some of the passages already 'speak' to me:

-What's the difference when it's over now? she begged silently and insistently of some listener within. Because it's over, however it was—and does not too much worship break the shrine? 

-She enjoyed, however, really enjoyed listening to classical music on the radio. One is safer with music.

This profile in The Paris Review is intriguing and dispels some of the exaggerations about events in her life. Since I find myself now wanting to know more about Theodora Keogh I just had to read:

       http://www.theparisreview.org/blog/2011/08/22/the-late-great-theodora-keogh/
 

As someone who is far more fascinated with people's voices than their looks I loved this passage, especially, though the rest of it's darn good, too:

It was Theodora’s amour propre that kept us from meeting face to face. She said she felt “diminished” physically, but “herself” on the telephone. In her early eighties when we started speaking, Theodora could have passed a voice audition for a worldly thirty-eight-year-old. Her voice was an emollient—smooth, chaleureuse, empathetic, and buffered by an elegant American diction which has been almost lost in the present day.



Sunday, July 27, 2014

I'm listening to my Styx's Greatest Hits album and wondering why I feel a bit shameful for it. "Babe" gets so much hate, even if I'm convinced some people secretly love it. "Mr. Roberto" seems to be many people's guilty pleasure. I admit neither song is very deep or always pleasing to the ear, but there's something kind of wonderfully hammy about both of them.

On songfacts.com there's much to be said from the lovers and the haters. I like this comment since I've always loved "I Go Crazy" by Paul Davis:

In the refrain to this song, just before the "Babe, I love you!" lyric, is some unknown instrument playing a pattern of 5 notes (4 notes, one played twice), & the pattern played multiple times. It's perfectly identical to that note pattern at the end of the refrain of "I Go Crazy" by Paul Davis. Same time signature in fact. Only a different key & octave, & probably a diff. instrument. But whenever I hear one, I always think of the other. Coincidence or not? Of course, "Babe" also has the same time signature & very similar melody to "The Best of Times", which I'm *quite sure* was no coincidence, since it's by the same group. Again, when I hear one, it reminds me of the other.
- Drew, B'ham, AL


On the straight dope message board, someone asks "What's with the Styx hate?"

http://boards.straightdope.com/sdmb/showthread.php?t=633146

Saturday, July 26, 2014



I have picked up and put down What Has Become of You so many times, not because it isn't good (I still can't decide on that yet) or boring (it's definitely not that!) but because the level of creepiness to it unnerves me.

The really weird thing is that I'm not sure if I'm supposed to feel creepy about the main character or the events going on in her life. Vera Lundy is sometimes someone to empathize with, other times someone you just don't understand. She can even be dislikable when it comes to how she relates with strangers, though many parts of her strike me as realistic even if those parts aren't something you want in a teacher.

The stars on Amazon are pretty much straight down the line:

20 Reviews
5 star:
 (4)
4 star:
 (6)
3 star:
 (5)
2 star:
 (3)
1 star:
 (2)






Author and book review publications seem to like it:

“It takes a lot to creep me out--I spent my youth reading Stephen King under the covers--but Jan Elizabeth Watson has more than succeeded in this gripping literary thriller. Part gloss on The Catcher in the Rye, part millennial The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie, What Has Become of You is that rare beast: a page-turner that asks dark, difficult questions about the state of contemporary American society.” –Joanna Smith Rakoff, author of A Fortunate Age


Kirkus gives it a glowing review with a great opening line:

Vera Lundy's had a little trouble letting go of her high school demons, so teaching 10th-grade English might not have been the wisest career choice.
 

I'll give the novel another chance because I honestly want to know what happens and there are times when I feel like I'm almost reading a Shirley Jackson novel (which is a good thing.)

There's also the side of Vera that I truly feel for which keeps her human for me, even if later on she makes colossal personal and professional mistakes.

Friday, July 25, 2014

Great Friday music...

"Jimmy Mack" is a good way to jump start your day, especially if you're in an oldies but goodies kind of mood. Karen Carpenter once covered it for an album she never got to see released and as much as I love her singing, I have never cared for her version as much as the original.

Also good for the spirits is "Oye Como Va," specifically Tito Puente's version of off Mambo Birdland. At over five and a half minutes, it's the most delightful jam I think I've ever heard. As Tito says at the end, "Did You Feel It?"

Most indeed!! :)

 
 
Oh, wow, is I Love You But I Must Drive Off This Cliff Now wonderfully sultry and sophisticated pop, perfect for summer. A bit like the bird and the bee with a little Lily Allen and lots of sixties lounge music thrown in, this album is just amazing. At first, I thought "Did We Live Too Fast" was too good for the rest of the cd to compete with, but I was wrong. Each of the eleven tracks that follow the bewitching kick-off stand up well, with maybe the exception of the guitar-fizzed, potty-mouthed, but still kind of fun "Da Da Da."
 


Tuesday, July 22, 2014

"People die all the time. Life is a lot more fragile than we think. So you should treat others in a way that leaves no regrets. Fairly, and if possible, sincerely. It's too easy not to make the effort, then weep and wring your hands after the person dies.” - Dance Dance Dance (1988)
Haruki Murakami, Dance Dance Dance





I love this man's novels and cannot wait until his new one comes out on August 12th. It's called Colorless Tsukuru Tazaki and His Years of Pilgrimage and sounds very Murakami-like which, if you enjoy his work, is a good thing. :)

 
 
 

Monday, July 21, 2014

Easy Come, Easy Go


Boy, do I love this song. It always puts a smile on my face with its overall bubble gum pop sound and optimistic spirit of bouncing back from a bad time in love. How can it not put someone willing to embrace an era light years away in fashion and music into a great mood? Plus, Bobby Sherman just looks like an overall nice guy. He has long been retired from show business and devotes lots of time to a children's charity he and his wife started.
 
So sweet, so wonderfully goofy, "Easy Come, Easy Go" :
 
 
 
 
Takin the shade out of the sun
Whatever made me think that I was number one
I oughta know easy come, easy go
Sittin' it out, spinnin' the dial
Thinkin' about the chump I've been
I have to smile
Didn't I know easy come, easy go
She wasn't kind, I wasn't smart
I lost my mind and fell apart
I had to find myself in time
Now I can start all over again
Hangin' around takin' it slow
Happy I found
I still can smile and dig the show
Lettin' me know easy come, easy go



Songwriters
Keller, Jack / Hilderbrand, Diane
Published by
Lyrics © EMI Music Publishing, Universal Music Publishing Group, Warner/Chappell Music, Inc
 
I'm into my second week of feeling like I haven't in ages and much of it has to do with the music I've been listening to and some of it with the absence of certain stressors. I'm trying to hold on to these feelings for as long as possible because soon some of those issues return. 

Inner peace seems more attainable when you accept what you cannot change and realize the things you want or the people you like who do not feel the same are what you need to let go of once and for all.




It's no wonder insomnia is so prevalent among those of us who tend to worry a lot. Other people, family, bills and, most fearsome of all, the future can all combine into a huge snowball of worry that seems to wreck your soul.

Insomnia, after a while, becomes something so common a part of your life you either sink or swim with it. I've been swimming most of the time, lately, mostly because pills, meditation and exercise (earlier in the day, of course) just don't seem to work. So I get up to clean or watch an old movie or sitcom or I pick up something light like the book below, which I read in one sitting.






I enjoyed Departure From The Script a lot; even if it's on the predictable side, it's the good kind of dependable, where you know you're going to get a solid romantic read. The characters (both main and secondary) are extremely likable and fully fleshed out and Jae, as always, writes well.

I'd strongly recommend this for a cozy afternoon, especially if you need to escape from real life for a few hours. Cute, sweet and full of refreshing sincerity, Departure is a stand-out in its genre.
 I'm not crazy about insomnia (who is?) but I do like to think of not sleeping as a chance to read as much as possible. There's no way I'd have taken in as many novels as I have without it...which is a good thing, I suppose, since this terrific new book has me jotting down even more titles for my Kindle and nightstand:


 

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Here's another title I found in 1001 Books You Must Read Before You Die. Combining "the didactic and the euphoric" (writes literary editor Daniel Soar), The Fruits Of The Earth mixes prose and poetry. It's really quite beautiful, full of passages that can truly speak to the heart.



"Let your waiting be not even longing, but simply a welcoming. Welcome everything that comes to you, but do not long for anything else. Long only for what you have."



"Old hands soil, it seems, whatever they caress, but they too have their beauty when they are joined in prayer. Young hands were made for caresses and the sheathing of love. It is a pity to make them join too soon."
On rare days when pop or rock is just too much for me, I turn to the quieter, but no less magnetic, side of music. This album has been on my cd player all day and has helped me find amazing amounts of peace. It's also a truly lovely listen.


All Music  has a solid review for it here:

Review by  [-]
Originally recorded in 1988, this was one of the recordings that made historical performance practice the mainstream when it came to Bach's major choral works. Every moment of the mass was thought through anew, every bit of conventional piety purged. Major B minor mass recordings in the following years have developed one aspect or another further than conductor Philippe Herreweghe does here; Masaaki Suzuki's Bach Collegium Japan chisels out the counterpoint in greater detail, and for grand reverential warmth there's always John Eliot Gardiner. But for a constant sense of wonder that makes even the larger harmonic structure of the mass seem surprising as it unfolds -- for a real sense of a group responding not only to a conductor's control but to his artistic vision -- this reading by Herreweghe and his Collegium Vocale Ghent remains unexcelled. Herreweghe returned to the Mass in B minor in 2000; that later recording features soloists who are sublime (Véronique Gens, Andreas Scholl) rather than merely good, but it does not exceed the marvelous freshness of this release, which is holding up well close to a quarter century later. At a budget price, this can't be beat. The recording was also a milestone in its engineering technique; the choir and soloists sound natural and clear in the Ghent church where they were recorded. Basic booklet notes are provided in English, German, and French.
She was sometimes called "Cyclone Callas" because of her temperament. Even before I ever heard any of her recordings I had heard this. I've always been a bit fascinated by people with passionate personalities and super-amazing talent, as if the two forces are impossible to separate.
 
Arianna Huffington wrote a solid, fascinating biography on Maria Callas in the early 1980s, parts of which can be read here:

http://books.google.com/books?id=k7rhGRvxyWwC&pg=PA93&dq=maria+callas+personality&hl=en&sa=X&ei=EzbLU9SiBc-TyAS_44DQBw&ved=0CCQQ6AEwAQ#v=onepage&q=maria%20callas%20personality&f=false


And of equal interest, if not more since it comes straight from the source herself, is this article from a 1950s issue of Life magazine:

Life article
http://books.google.com/books?id=W0gEAAAAMBAJ&pg=PA118&dq=maria+callas+temperamental+life&hl=en&sa=X&ei=uTvLU_7XLM22yAS21YGIBw&ved=0CCYQ6AEwAQ#v=onepage&q=maria%20callas%20temperamental%20life&f=false

Friday, July 18, 2014

 
So bleak and disparaging of love (especially physical love) and marriage ever existing in the same space, The Kreutzer Concerto is best read only if you're in a strong enough mood to handle its darkness...or if you're already in agreement with main character Pozdnyshev. Either way, the short novel is gripping and overwhelming (not necessarily in a good way)...and best followed with something happy.

 I prefer the views of a woman who appears briefly in the opening scene where a small group of people are discussing their takes on women, men, love and marriage. The lone female says:

"Ah, but what you say is terrible...there certainly exists among human beings this feeling which is called loved, and which lasts, not for months and years, but life."

On the other hand, there is almost an appealing frankness to Tolstoy's that society was better off when marriages were arranged and none of "what is this?...The young girls are seated, and gentlemen walk up and down before them, as in a bazaar, and make their choice." Leo Tolstoy seems honestly conflicted between how things should be and how they are, what is natural and what is not.

Much of what he writes in The Kreutzer Sonata is not friendly to women or romantic love, but he's being true to his own views, good ones or bad. In Epilogue To The Kreutzer Sonata, published in 1890, Tolstoy shared see what he saw as the novella's central theme:
 
"Let us stop believing that carnal love is high and noble and understand that any end worth our pursuit -- in service of humanity, our homeland, science, art, let alone God -- any end, so long as we may count it worth our pursuit, is not attained by joining ourselves to the objects of our carnal love in marriage or outside it; that, in fact, infatuation and conjunction with the object of our carnal love (whatever the authors of romances and love poems claim to the contrary) will never help our worthwhile pursuits but only hinder them."
 
 
 
 
 
 
 


Thursday, July 17, 2014

 
 


 
 
 
 
In the early 90s I subscribed to Time Life's AM Gold 1960s cd series. I was helplessly addicted and loved when each new package came in the mail. Of all the years, 1969 is my favorite...every single song on it except "Hair I played often.
 
 
I still own and love that cd and find a ridiculous amount of peace and happiness in listening to it on quiet nights like these, where the window is open, a soft breeze floats in and (for as long as the album lasts) I forget everything else in this crazy world.
 
 
My favorite single from it is Mercy's "Love (Can Make You Happy)." Its message is timeless, even if the cover art for the album it's from is not.
 
 
(lyrics by Jack Sigler, Jr.)
 
Wake up in the morning with the sunshine in your eyes
And the smell of flowers blooming fills the air.
Your mind is filled with the thoughts of a certain someone - that you
love;
Your life is filled with joy when she is there.
Love can make you happy if you fine someone who cares
To give a life time to you and who has a love to share.
If you think you've found someone you'll love forevermore,
Then it's worth the price you'll have to pay (pay).
To have, to hold's important when forever is the phrase
That means the love you've found is going to stay.
Love can make you happy if you find someone who cares
To give a life time to you and who has a love to share.
La-love, la-love
Love can make you happy.
Love can make you happy.
Love can make you happy.
Love...
 
 

 
I will never understand boredom. To me it seems like a wasted luxury. There are so few free hours in the world to do extra things like read the books you want to read or go for nature walks, explore the larger world or have time to do whatever just for yourself. When you get that extra time it feels like a gift.

As if The Novel: A Biography wasn't giving me more ideas of what to read there's the above which is much more comprehensive and less mainstream than I would have thought. It's full of fascinating ideas for what to read next, including a rarely mentioned novel by Daniel Defoe called Roxana:


 
 
1001 Books starts chronologically from the 1600s and goes until now; the selections are varied and intriguing. Many of the ones mentioned that were written before the 1920s can be downloaded for free by going to Google Play and looking them up title:

Google Play


I love the unz website; it's addictive because there are so many old magazines from the early 20th century with charming romantic short stories and sweet covers. 

There's also mystery and fashion and occasional "tawdriness" to combat the overall quaint sense of a completely different time, even if it was mostly illusion.

http://www.unz.org/Pub/AllPeriodicals

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

I'm in awe of The Beginning Of Us, which I just finished and was immensely relieved (though surprised) had a happy, realistic ending, true to the spirit of the book.

There are so many beautiful things about the novella, especially the writing and mood.

But something else that I loved about it is how Tara and Eliza slowly (very slowly) fall in love and how it's all about the day trips they share and their common interests in nature and literature. When they stay overnight during one of their first weekend trips, they sleep in separate beds. There is not one sex scene anywhere in the story and I find that so incredibly refreshing and sweet, only lovely passages, like this one, that make my heart skip a few beats:

One evening on a walk in the snow, I broke a stick off a bush and wrote I LOVE YOU, ELIZA in the snow, and instead of telling me I had crossed some boundary, you laughed and told me one of the reasons you loved me so much was that I knew how to use commas properly.

In the author information following the end of The Beginning, Sarah Brooks says she writes the lesbian fiction she wishes she could read. I totally get that and sincerely hope she writes lots more in the future.

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

I am so excited to be excited about things again...trying personal experiences can suck the life right out of your enthusiasm. My newest thing to be grateful for is this...

The Novel: A Biography is so heavy (well over 1000 pages) that it actually sank my bed down a tad. I saw it on the shelf at the library and "700 years" and "history of the novel" just jumped out at me when I looked at the flyleaf.

I am way more giddy than I should be about it, but I love stuff like this and so many of the titles referred can be found on Google books and downloaded for free through Kindle and Google Play...as if there aren't already enough books to read!!

There aren't any reviews for it on Amazon, but the Goodreads crowd really seems to like it. I agree with some reviewers who say it's the kind of book you have to buy and have nearby all the time.

https://www.goodreads.com/book/show/18770233-the-novel?from_search=true

as seen on Random House's Facebook page

 
 

The other day I mentioned a book called The Beginning Of Us by Sarah Brooks:
Even though it's only 93 pages, I'm still reading it. Last night I found myself actually crying over the story, though I still have no clue how it's going to end or why I care so much about the characters.

I think, perhaps, it's hit a personal nerve that I've never experienced something so mutually reciprocated and tender, with both people clearly adoring and caring about each other, yet both women seriously denying what they are emotionally and romantically experiencing.

The other thing is this is the kind of title I'd give anyone who says two people of the same gender can't possibly fall in love. Ironically, the people I'd want to give it to would probably never read it...but it shows, rather than tells, exactly how beautiful feelings can be. It's so good it makes 90% of the other lesfic I've read (even some of the better stuff) seem like absolute trash.

There are so many wonderful passages, such as this one:

I think you playfully hit my backpack then, and when I turned around to grin at you, I caught something in your gaze that I didn’t understand—and know now you didn’t either. That early, I saw love in your eyes.

The Iowa woods are enchanting. My grandmother, a lover of nature and especially of the woods, had taught me to love the names of the oaks—bur, red, northern pin. I love their thick grooved trunks and their broad prayers of branches. I recognized lindens and hawthorn, buckeye and hickory. Near the ground, witch hazel. The path, dirt now, wove gently beneath the green, arched cathedral ceiling of those great trees, and somewhere nearby a house wren sang.

“What do you see?” you asked. I wanted to be poetic. In class, you read poetry like others read aloud religious texts, and I wanted you to understand how beautiful I found those woods, how connected and grounded they made me feel.

“Tara?”

Why did it surprise me to hear you use my name? It was as if I thought you didn’t know it...some quality to your voice just then, some softness, some tenderness, startled me into silence. The house wren, too.

There's a purity to The Beginning Of Us that you don't see in too many love stories these days (gay or straight) and I think that's what resonates with me the most...

Monday, July 14, 2014


Learning about things new to me often gets me out of a funk.  There are so many great things undiscovered out there and so little time to find them. I am so glad I've started reading The Sunday Times or I might not have discovered Pergolesi-Stabat Mater and its awesome, calming yet overwhelming beauty.

I did not know a thing about  this recording (or any performance of it), but am  so enthralled I cannot stop listening...soprano Margaret Marshall performs on this particular release.

Wikipedia explains more about the original music:

Stabat Mater Dolorosa, often referred to as Stabat Mater, is a 13th-century Catholic hymn to Mary, variously attributed to the Franciscan Jacopone da Todi and to Innocent III. It is about the Sorrows of Mary.[1][2][3]
The title of the sorrowful hymn is an incipit of the first line, Stabat mater dolorosa ("The sorrowful mother stood").[4] The Stabat Mater hymn, one of the most powerful and immediate of extant medieval poems, meditates on the suffering of Mary, Jesus Christ's mother, during his crucifixion. It is sung at the liturgy on the memorial of Our Lady of Sorrows. The Stabat Mater has been set to music by many composers, with the most famous settings being those by Palestrina, Pergolesi, Alessandro Scarlatti and Domenico Scarlatti, Vivaldi, Haydn, Rossini, Poulenc, and Dvořák.
The Stabat Mater was well known by the end of the 14th century and Georgius Stella wrote of its use in 1388, while other historians note its use later in the same century. In Provence, about 1399, it was used during the nine days processions.[5]
As a liturgical sequence, the Stabat Mater was suppressed, along with hundreds of other sequences, by the Council of Trent, but restored to the missal by Pope Benedict XIII in 1727 for the Feast of the Seven Dolours of the Blessed Virgin Mary.[6]
 
It appeared on a playlist of  actress Janet McTeer's favorite songs , one of which is "Nothing Compares 2 U," something I usually avoid at all costs since it has to be one of the most emotionally draining listening experiences ever. She also cites "Hallelujah" (particularly Jeff Buckley's cover) as another strong favorite.


Sunday, July 13, 2014


It's only 93 pages, but this little book (where the narrator addresses the entire story to the woman she loves who has just left her) is so heartbreaking in scope...though I suppose 'heartbreaking' is defined more by your experience and perspective in these matters. One person's heartbreak can be another's idea of eye-rolling melodrama.
 
Between the constant use of "you" and the mad rush from the very start I had my misgivings at first:

I never told you this, either. I thought you would think I was crazy, to be so emotional about you the first day I met you.

but now I'm totally swept in and can't help but see how different it is from what would have been its lesfic counterpart more than 50 years ago:



Solely because I have read other novels by the same author, I bought an ebook version of Insatiable, discovering it's nowhere near as wonderfully written as These Curious Pleasures or 3rd Sex 1st Person.

Sloane Britain's personal backstory is a haunting one. At the age of 32, apparently bereft that her family could not accept her being gay, Elaine Williams (Britain's real name) killed herself. A likable, if extremely private, editor for "sleaze paperback" publisher Midwood Books in the 1960s, Williams used the pseudonym Sloane Britain (with other variations on the same name) to write lesbian pulp. Some of it is so simply terrific (3rd Sex 1st Person, for sure) that, next to it, Insatiable lacks heart and soul and is merely a product of its time.

You can sense some of the writer's internal homophobia in Insatiable where lesbianism is clearly portrayed as something "perverted," to be hidden and only even partially acceptable when there are no men around to "satisfy" you. People who knew Elaine Williams said she lost some of the optimism she had early in her career and that cynicism, desperation and gritty hard luck themes took over her later work.

Unlike These Curious Pleasures, which suggested lesbians could love just as much as anyone else does and dared to hint at happiness for its main character, Insatiable is basically a train wreck of emotions and poor reactions to life. Even so, there are still traces here of a talented writer, if one who seems to have lost any enthusiasm or interest in the world around her.

I would so love to think that if Elaine Williams and her alter ego Sloane Britain had lived today, they'd be thriving both personally and professionally. That doesn't change what happened to her, of course, but it's something I pretend anyway as I realize people in my generation have it much easier (comparatively speaking, of course) than earlier gays and lesbians did.

Sunday papers...

Spending the late morning listening to music (thanks to Pandora I discovered<<this<<album) with The New York Times, The Sunday Times, The Guardian and Wall Street Journal papers, I'm finding some neat articles. I mostly go through all the major papers to get a feel for the book reviews, but sometimes the more feature-oriented pieces appeal to me:

*The last album imaginable you'd picture impressing a member of The Ramones:

http://online.wsj.com/articles/richie-ramone-on-herb-alpert-and-the-tijuana-brass-1405100157?tesla=y&mg=reno64-wsj&url=http://online.wsj.com/article/SB10001424052702304574504580001542897793352.html

* Can you use the rules of Poker in every day life? I hope so. I don't play cards, but I would love to know how humans can better hide how we really feel: (from Parade magazine):

*I have become addicted to reading the Sunday Times these past few weeks. There's something about the 'other side of the pond' I just can't enough of...You can't really learn anything from this, but it's still a funny and surprisingly poignant article written by a man wondering if hitting forty means things are going downhill:

http://www.thesundaytimes.co.uk/sto/newsreview/columnists/article1433375.ece



*There's an absolutely fascinating examination of great forgotten reads in "Good reads go Dutch," an article I can't find online anywhere, but is well worth getting your hands on if you can find a print copy. Among the many "good reads" mentioned are gems like these:

http://www.amazon.com/Discovery-Heaven-Harry-Mulisch/dp/0140239375/ref=sr_1_1?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1405273506&sr=1-1&keywords=the+discovery+of+heaven


*A very interesting, compassionate look at obesity as a massive health scare that nevertheless often brings ridicule and judgment from those who do not understand:

http://www.theguardian.com/commentisfree/2014/jul/13/overweight-people-help-malice-gastric-bands-nhs


Pandora got my hopes up when I heard this beautiful cover of "Ave Maria" by Siphiwo off his album Hope. But in an example of maddening searches over the Internet the bring nothing back, I can't find the song anywhere for purchase (digitally) or even to play on You Tube. Pandora's Opera Radio is good, but often plays certain selections over a lot so maybe it will play again soon. It is so lovely, even for how lovely "Ave Maria" is...



Saturday, July 12, 2014

Saturday night music...

 album cover for Incorruptible by Lavender Diamond

What a nice album Incorruptible Heart is, a really, really nice album that just sounds so sincere you can't help but like Lavender Diamond immediately. I can't put my finger on why it's such a refreshing album...maybe just because every song is somehow a throwback to girl groups, Linda Ronstandt and even a little bit Karen Carpenter, but with modern sensibilities.

There are sooo many stand-outs on here: "Everybody's Heart's Breaking Now" (highlighted in Amazon's Free Music From Artists On The Rise) is spectacular! I figured when I went to listen to the rest of the album it wouldn't measure up, but boy does it! "I Don't Recall" is as sweet as a soda shop, but not at all precious. "Teach Me How To Waken" is airy, almost mystical, definitely haunting. "Forgive" is downright gorgeous and "Perfect Love" is quite adorable, in a Connie Francis kind of way.

Lavender Diamond's frontwoman Becky Stark's distinctive voice makes the album unforgettable. When she was seventeen, her vocal teacher told Becky her ribcage was too small for classical singing, but I beg to differ, especially on the last track with its echoes of opera. Closing with the lovely "All The Stars," Incorruptible Heart is perfectly titled. Can anyone who sings like this be anything but good-hearted? I love, love, love this album! :)

Here's what allmusic.com has to say, as the review actually appears on the website (no paragraph breaks):

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Upon their emergence in the early 2000s, Los Angeles-based Lavender Diamond were immediately lumped into the "New Weird America" movement that included warped indie folkies like Devendra Banhart, Joanna Newsom, and Vetiver, among many others. The band, based around the creative force of bandleader Becky Stark, wasn't quite all the way weird, folk, feral, or drugged-out enough to fit into the confines of the New Weird ghetto, but their achingly positive songs soared with childlike simplicity and a crushingly beautiful straightforwardness in Stark's lyrics and lush vocals. Maybe the nakedness of the songs weirded people out enough, and not offering enough of a context or a gimmick to fit in with the Sufjan Stevenses or Clap Your Hands Say Yeahs of that particular moment in time, Lavender Diamond were shuffled off to sit with the weird kids at the freak folk table. Returning after a five-year space between records with Incorruptible Heart, all the elements of Stark and company's uniquely direct sound have been brought into higher definition, still relying on both playfulness and open-hearted honesty in the songwriting, but bringing with it a refined sophistication absent on earlier work. Songs like the piano-driven "Forgive" and "Oh My Beautiful World" with its update on girl group sounds bring Stark's voice into the forefront, as usual, but here they bear a sadness or world-weary understanding that was missing in the band's more naïve songs. Production was handled by OK Go's Damian Kulash Jr. and Flaming Lips collaborator Dave Fridmann, and it's apparent from signature blown-out drum sounds and a combination of dazzlingly psychedelic yet crystal-clear touches. While being relatively spare, Incorruptible Heart sounds huge. "Light My Way" flirts with electro-pop, but sounds a little out of place next to more stripped-down songs. M. Ward shows up to duet on the whimsically upbeat "Perfect Love," which may be a little too giggly and cute for its own good in comparison to the rest of the album, which comes off in turns as mysterious as some of Kate Bush's moments of storminess or as somber as Nick Drake's early orchestral pop bummers. Album opener "Everybody's Heart's Breaking Now" sets the scene of the album with its gorgeously simple electric piano and melancholic ripples of delayed percussion and pulsing electronics bounding like rocky waves beneath Stark's voice. Lavender Diamond still aren't weird enough for their wild-eyed brethren, but maybe a little too weird (or more likely not quite disposable enough) for Target commercials. Incorruptible Heart exists, much as the band does, in an in-between space that's not easy to pigeonhole. There's always been an inexplicable brightness to Stark's songs, and here that light is near blinding, even when the songs themselves aren't particularly happy. This long-labored album is a thoughtful and contemplative breed of off-kilter pop that becomes both more interesting and increasingly complex with repeat listening.

Friday, July 11, 2014

I have been thinking about love (and all its different forms) for longer than I should today. Most likely, it's the books in my life right now. Often, for me, they offer something real life rarely can. More than not, they are ridiculously unrealistic and therefore can only set you up for disappointment when you come back to earth.

Sometimes, though, they offer what you need at just the right moment even if the plot has nothing to do with you, the sentiments can.

Taxi To Paris has turned out to be one of the best love stories I've read in a while. It's probably also one of the most unusual ones and definitely, through most of it, the saddest.

In the early stages, the sadness is all about each woman's isolated feelings and the need to eradicate what she feels for someone she can't be with in any kind of way. The main character, in particular suffers:
 
If ever a thought of her entered my mind, I hunted it promptly to extinction.
 
The novel is unique because it takes a premise that is usually one big dangerous cliché ("Pretty Woman") and makes it grim and gritty, far more fragile and not only believable and far from romantic, but somehow necessary to the storyline.

And, as with any two people coming together as a possible couple, there's always conflict:

It seemed that there were never two free minutes in which we could just be together calmly and happily. Every time, something unpredictable happened.

Prostitution would seem to be the elephant in the room, but it's actually love and how foreign and inaccessible it is to a woman who has never really known it and the person who wants to share it with her.
 
“Then I can’t love you either?” I said it for her. “Do you think that my love for you depends on the availability of your body?”
 
 She looked at me mutely. Her eyes were desperate. She was incapable of expressing what she felt, but she would’ve loved to do it. She said more with her silence than I would ever have thought possible

What should I do with all my love if I couldn’t give it to her?
 
She came after me, first hesitantly, then with long, fast steps. She took me in her arms. I stood there, desiring nothing else. "Stay with me," she whispered, choking on her tears.
 
 There is so much here that surprises me with its easy to relate components, but none so much as when the narrator decries the "other fish in the sea" advice people always give those who have just lost in love:
 
I’d remain alone instead. That situation seemed the most desirable to me at the moment. If I couldn’t have her, the difference didn’t seem that great.
 
Of course, this is only the tip of the iceberg. There is so much conflict and going back and forth that by the end the reader is almost dizzy...yet it's a pleasant, gentle kind of vertigo.

There's always a risk in romancing the impossible, but here it works, precisely because it isn't romance so much as a very long and very painful journey to love. I guess that sounds so corny, but it's what I get from Taxi To Paris.

So many books, so little time...






It does not pay to start cleaning your place by starting with the bookshelf, _never_ does it pay. If you're like me, you end up on the floor with a beloved book from your past and you open it to a random page, begin reading and get lost all over again.
 
Darn you, books, I'm supposed to get things done today!
 
The academics in Marilyn Sides' lovely, funny first novel, The Genius of Affection, are preoccupied with gardens and love... in that order. Toward the end of the book, Sides comes right out and says it: "Martin looked around the yard and said to Lucy, 'It's the urban pastoral.'" An urban pastoral indeed: Everyone lives in gritty Boston, and they all tend their plots like crazy. The Lucy in question is a biographer (with a passion for showy annuals) who's just turned 40 and had decided it's time to get her domestic life in order and find a partner. If the hunt for a husband sounds like familiar territory, don't think Sides doesn't know it. Jane Austen hangs over the novel like a friendly spook, and is invoked in the novel's opening lines: "How lucky, how comforting to have a lover on one's fortieth birthday. Lucy Woolhandler had managed, at the last minute, to meet that deadline. The idea of such a deadline she knew to be ridiculous. She wasn't living, was she, in an updated Jane Austen novel, where the problem was to get the pathetic heroine married, not at twenty-two or twenty-five, but forty?" Turns out, of course, that's just where she is living.

Three suitors court Lucy--the most favored of them is a gardening historian, the least favored plants a hundred prissy white tulips in prissy straight rows. Sides employs the time-tested Austen strategy (not to say formula) where the emergence of the "right" suitor heralds the emergence of Lucy's most "right" self. This is a novel of middle age: its characters don't change, they come to know themselves. Sides, author of the acclaimed story collection The Island of the Mapmaker's Wife & Other Tales, cleverly shows how Lucy's search for love is also a search for a new way of living. Lucy desires dailiness, she grows "nostalgic for everyday life." At 40, she no longer wants the grand gesture, she wants the small, repeated gesture that grows beautiful with time, as in a garden, or a well-made novel. --Claire Dederer